Smartphones are the New Cigarettes

I couldn’t agree more with this article. I myself find more enjoyment with deep physiological conversations with people. Which is harder and harder to find as people are more engrossed in their phones. 

Who knows, with an open mind, I might learn something new about myself, others, or the world around me. But mostly, I learn that face to face conversations give me a chance to give help and support to others. It also gives me another perspective in my own doubts and worries. It uplifts my heart and spirit to know I’m not alone in the warmth of a conversation. 


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I have always felt this way. I have more trouble understanding why others aren’t. I’ve often been called antisocial, crazy, and so on because I enjoy being alone. I don’t need others to entertain me, or to determine my self worth. I am complete and whole just the way God intended me to be. 

LJ VANIER: “12 Signs You’re A Deep Thinker Who Enjoys Being Alone” – http://wp.me/p4gZX2-9V6



Quembie 2001 – 2016

Today marks a year you have been gone. Though, you’re not here physically, I can still feel your presence within my heart. I still miss you every day. You will always be my shining angel of love. Forever etched on my heart and soul. 


Drug Dealer’s Paradise.

​I use to sit outside of an evening. I love to listen to the birds, and watch them catch their last meal, before the sun sets. It is such a stress reliever for me, after a noisy, stressful day of listening to the neighbors slam their doors all day.

So now that the weather has gotten nice again, I thought I’d enjoy sitting on my deck again. You can imagine my surprise, when I watched a drug transaction take place, on the sidewalk, just three apartments from where I was sitting.

It was bad enough that my girlfriend and I watched a drug transaction take place in the parking lot two days before. Some of these people are living here, but not on a lease, while others are just buyers and dealers from the local community.

To top it all off, was the big drug bust in the parking lot four days ago. Some man was slumped over the steering wheel of the car, passed out, while the car was running. Again this person doesn’t even live in the complex. It felt like I was on the TV show ” Cops Reloaded”. I’m so grateful for the local police department.

Rumor also has it that the woman, across the hall from me, has a daughter on heroin living with her. I’ve seen her living here for about 2-3 weeks now. It’s not very comforting to know that you live across the hall from a heroin addict.

The bad part about all this is the landlord is at a real disadvantage on doing anything about it. As new landlords, they don’t really know who’s who on the property. They don’t see much of the activity, because it’s after their office hours. When management are told about it, they don’t really have the time to check it out for themselves. Which has made me lose faith in them.

The other problem is, by the time the police get here, the people doing this illegal activity are usually gone. So the police don’t see it either.

I can a sure you, I don’t feel to safe living here, knowing all this drug activity is going on. Nor does it feel to safe to sit outside anymore for that matter. I guess if I want to enjoy being outside, I’ll have to find another place to do it. Because I can’t seem to be able to do it at my own home these days, since the apartment complex has become an illegal drug paradise. It’s sad when you don’t feel safe within your own home anymore. Or afraid to come out because you could run into this illegal activity.

Hopefully, my finances will let me move next summer. Until then I’ll have to weather the hell of this place the best way I can. If I’m lucky, maybe I won’t lose my sanity and have a nervous break down.


Peeping Tom

I live in an apartment complex for the elderly and handicapped. This building has a hallway that runs the length of it, on the inside. My apartment is on the back side of this building, next to the back side of the lobby. The outside wall for my apartment comes out further than the lobby wall, creating a bit of a recessed area, that I can’t really see unless I’m on my deck. This area is where the weekly cleaning ladies have their cigarette breaks from time to time.

The way that my apartment is situated on the property, I have from time to time had other people invading my privacy, as they walk down the sidewalk. Most people, once they realize this, are more respectful, and make an effort not to look in my windows. Therefore, you can just imagine my surprise when I caught one of theses cleaning ladies doing this a couple of days ago.

Usually, this cleaning lady stays on the steps to smoke, which is never a problem. Most times I never even know she’s there, other than her smoke drifting past my deck. On this particular day, I happen to be sitting in my rocker, looking out the window. While sitting there, I watched this cleaning lady make a special effort to walk further out into the yard, turn around, and look me in the eye. The look on her face, told me that she was just as surprised to see me sitting there looking back at her. Anyways, we proceeded to stare at each other for a few minutes, until she decided to sit in the yard, though still watching me in my home. I was so dumb founded by this action, I lost my tongue.

When she finished her cigarette, she went back into the building, to do her job in my building. As her boss came into the hallway outside my door, there was a snide comment about a video camera I have in my window. This comment was loud enough to be heard into my apartment, as did my neighbors.

Now, I’m not really concerned that anyone knows the camera is there. It has been there for 3 to 4yrs now. It is legally there for personal security reasons. I intentionally put it in full view to keep the bad elements away from me and my property on the deck. Especially since my apartment was broke into the first summer I lived here. Besides, people shouldn’t be to concerned about the camera in the window. They need to be more worried about the one in my hand catching their bad activity, that I can take to the landlord. It has also been my experience that the people who have a problem with this camera, are the ones doing something illegal anyways.

Later that afternoon, I was telling another neighbor about this. I was then informed, that his woman cleans the buildings on four apartment complexes this owner has. Plus, the boss of this cleaning business, has been known to leave the property, while on the job, with a tenant to go smoke some weed. Which, doesn’t make me to comfortable to know that I have a woman cleaning while she’s high on the job. What other illegal activity is she doing while she’s here, on HUD property?

What I do find so disturbing, is that these cleaning ladies are suppose to be of professional charter, and looking into tenant homes. Then the boss of this cleaning crew also shows such childish, unprofessional behavior also. I guess some people just don’t know when they cross the line of others civil rights and invading their privacy. But, I never would of expected it from a professional business. I guess it goes to show that, just because someone has a professional business, that doesn’t mean that they are as a person. I was so surprised by these ladies behavior, as I have never seen them be anything other than professional before. I realize that I can be to trusting and native about some things, but not when it comes to my privacy invaded by a professional business. I do know for sure, I wont recommend this woman’s services to anyone in the future, as I have in the past. I also know that, come next week, I’ll be more ready for this peeping – tom activity. It’s really a shame that some professional businesses are less than professional quality.